i've had enough

you know what...i've had enough...really..
i was waiting for you to talk to me for like the whole day..texted you.thank you for being sensitive.

yana:hey,where are you?
*about four hours passed*
carey:on the train home.
yana*overjoyed he actually replied*:oo,talk to me i'm bored to death and i miss you(how pathetic can i get)
carey:not now.i'm kinda held up.
nice right. i'm sick of it.yesterday i though of giving you the fucking last chance and you said you don't wanna miss your chance with me and i thought i'm not giving up, but who am i kidding. come on.you don't like me.you just don't.you created it,made it up.you say you like me bla bla bla bullshit. at this point i almost cried but you..you're an insensitive pig.

can't help but to insult you: Carey, you are insensitive, selfish, egoistic and stupid and you've lost all the chances i've given you.

you missed every single oh-so-obvious hint not because you didn't notice them, because you DIDN'T WANT to notice them. at this point i actually hate. how can you hurt me with your insensitivity like this. i'm complimented you on not giving a fuck, now i'm taking my words back. you have no heart and i hate you.

who am i trying to fool though, i like you, i'm attracted to you, you know what i'll even use words from the worst movie i have ever seen:you're like a drug,my own personal type of heroine(or however it goes) but now i'm so fed up and so pissed that i don't care
i need to switch to someone else and i'm trying to. i don't want you to go to States but now i feel like it's necessary to me. i can't see you everyday. it hurts. i'm not used to being all desperate. i used to be. but now you're making me feel disgusted about my own self. i really hate you..and i love you.

yes i wish we had a chance. and no i wish i didn't know you.

i don't wanna know you. i don't wanna talk to you. i don't wanna see you. get out of my face, Carey. get out of my life. you've missed your chances and you ruined our friendship.