At the edge of an emotional breakdown(pieces)

I’ve faced the consequences of falling apart nothing is left. Just my broken heart. I smile for no reason. Fond memories back. Too good to compete. Not over. No lack. Got nothing to cherish. But nothing is lost. They say everything in this world has a cost. I might not be happy I might not be sad. I might not be living I might not be dead. I praise my belongings. I scrape off my love. I tried to be stronger I tried to be tough. I prayed for the sun to give me last breath. I woke with the tears that I always have. I don’t hear the music I don’t hear the cries. I look at the sky. And I see the lies. I feel something breaking. Deep down inside. I fall on the ground. There’s no where to hide. I struggled to hold on to pieces of light. The world was immersing right into the night. I’ve seen all the troubles. I felt all the pain. Soon after it all was washed out with rain. And then I saw nothing. I just remained mute. I felt all the ease that I ever could.